Time of dream: 6th May 2020, 4.50am I woke up in the middle of night. Sky was still dark. I had an urgent need to go to the toilet. So I got up and walked to the toilet at our kitchen. I sat down on the toilet bowl, eyes half open and I heard a […]
7-10 March 2020 I had been feeling really tired and torn apart lately. Despite trying to stay positive and keep myself busy by making artworks for Taenggu and writing actively, I couldn’t help feeling empty and depressed every now and then. One major reason for my feelings of depression is that I haven’t been earning […]
26th December 2019 It was Thursday. I thought it would be just another ordinary day. I went to work at Klass Engineering where I just started working as a part-time data entry image annotator not long ago. I had a few personal issues waiting for me to tackle. One of them was that my schizophrenia […]
“It is the time you have wasted for your rose that makes your rose so important.” Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, The Little Prince / “Supposing I know of a flower that is absolutely unique, that is nowhere to be found except on my planet, and any minute that flower could accidentally be eaten up by a […]
#191218# In light of Jonghyun’s 2nd death anniversary today, since last year I wrote the post THE AFTERLIFE OF JONGHYUN (1ST DEATH ANNIVERSARY), I thought it would be nice to also do a review update of what Jonghyun could have been doing in the second year of his afterlife based on my personal experiences and […]
“My name is Sulli, Sul means snow and Li means a pear flower, so I’ll be probably reborn as a flower that is small but full of strong vitality.” Sulli #191014# On the morning of Wine Day, 14th October, I went for an interview for a part-time e-commerce assistant job for an online art & […]
They try, they try They try to chain me down Strangle me Suffocate me So I don’t say a thing Rip me off And cast me away So many Pinocchios Liars and the dirty, dirty cheats in the world They’re so small, so small Celeste Koh (2019) #190823# On my recent Tumblr post, I explained […]
It was a mystery how Taenggu could have found me in 2013. It was a miracle if she did. All I knew was not long after Girls’ Generation (SNSD) ended their promotions for I Got A Boy (the song that marked the beginning of my schizophrenia and mystical spiritual journey), Taenggu made an instagram account […]
“Everglow” by Coldplay oh they say people come, say people go this particular diamond was extra special and though you might be gone, and the world may not know still I see you, celestial like a lion you ran, a goddess you rolled like an eagle you circled, in perfect purple so how come things […]
April had been a really difficult month for me. It seemed to get harder and harder to get pass day after day being stuck with an office job that I didn’t enjoy. I guess it was that time of the year again. The time had come again for me to seriously ponder and make important […]
31st January & 2nd February 2019 On 15th January, I published the post The Journey To Taenggu (Poem) + Story Behind A Special Snow Globe From 2013. I wrote about the story behind a special “向左走·向右走 (A Chance of Sunshine)” snow globe which Taenggu shared on her instagram in 2013 and how it was involved […]
18 December 2018 Ever since Taenggu posted a video of herself building and decorating a winter tree at her house in preparation for the upcoming Christmas Day and seeing how beautiful the tree looked at the end, I felt tempted to get a Christmas tree to display at home for myself too. At least a […]