Schizophrenic Episode: Monsters of the Night

May 2013 Three nights in a rowI couldn’t really fall asleepKept awake by the monsters of the nightVoices of different entities whom I couldn’t seeCame and went at their willWhat were they discussing about?Dealer?What dealer?Drug dealer?What did they want to do to me?Imagination ran wildTake me, just take meDon’t harm TaeyeonTaeyeon is a celebrity but […]

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Schizophrenic Episode: Seeking Religious Help With Schizophrenia

April – May 2013 Since that day my family came frantically looking for me at Singapore Botanic Gardens to bring me homeI was taken to visit different religious placesAfter hearing my woes of hearing voicesFeelings of being possessedOr being chased by evil spirits My father said to meThere’s nothing to be afraid ofAs long as […]

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Schizophrenic Episode: Giving Tuition With A Schizophrenic Mind

Like many other university undergraduatesI took up tuition assignmentsEarning extra pocket money during my free time outside of schoolI think I was concurrently teaching about 2-3 kids at that timeStart of 2013I had an Indian girlAnother Indian boyAnother Chinese girl perhapsBut those days were so darkGloomy like the weatherFrequent rainThunderstormsTrips to my tutees’ house were […]

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Schizophrenic Episode: “Split”

#220410# January 2013 One night For what was to be a precursor to my worst nightmare for a long time I was watching a short program on a local TV channel That episode was featuring a type of mental illness What was it called…. Bipolar Disorder? I can’t remember exactly But they re-enacted what seemed […]

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Schizophrenic Episode: MV Filming at Singapore Botanic Gardens in 2013

#220406# That periodEach day I felt like I was caught in the middle of a battle between the good and evil forcesThat dayMy dad drove me in the carI listened to the subtle changes in his voiceAt one moment, his voice was youthful like that of a young ladAnother moment, his voice turned hoarser and […]

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All Alone

The first time I was alone
It was not by choice
I got dumped by friends who made empty promises
Who cancelled dates last minute
Who left me behind to join other more popular groups of friends….

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Lyrics: “Not Alone” by Girls’ Generation + Reflections of My Year 2 Sem 2 in University in 2013 Plagued By My Onset Of Schizophrenia

“Not Alone” by Girls’ Generation (English translated lyrics with individual parts) [Tiffany] Have you ever, even now believed That love matures with just one person [Yoona] Even just wishing for it, I can’t do it well [Yuri] But, still I know [Taeyeon] Not Alone, Not Alone Even if these feelings don’t have an “answer” [Jessica] […]

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Extraordinary Theta Healing Experience – When Truth Prevails And A Leap Closer To The Light (Part 1 – My First Personal Face-to-Face Healing Session With An Experienced Healer)

April had been a really difficult month for me. It seemed to get harder and harder to get pass day after day being stuck with an office job that I didn’t enjoy. I guess it was that time of the year again. The time had come again for me to seriously ponder and make important […]

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The Calmness In My Personality

A few days ago, I had a game of badminton with 2 of my friends whom I met during my summer school in Tianjin 4 years ago. We had a nice chat over some drinks of iced milo outside Macdonalds after that. Among the things that we talked about, they commented about my calm personality. […]

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Seeking Answers At New Age Fair: What Is My Life Purpose?

#180519# Ever since I was out of job and came back from an one-week holiday in Seoul, I have been actively browsing for jobs that are available on the market now. Be it potential full-time permanent jobs or temporary 1 or 2-day kind of event jobs, I have been keeping a lookout for them. Like […]

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One Eye Shut – My Strange Hospitalisation in 2007

“Every closed eye is not sleeping, and every open eye is not seeing.” Bill Cosby This story happened in 2007 when I was in Secondary 4, my final year in St. Nicholas Girls’ School. As I had shared in my previous life story post BUTTERFLY AT HEART – MUSIC CHOSE ME (TO BE A MESSENGER), […]

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