[Poem] Sakura

Sakura bloomsAt the peak of SpringSo does my little heartThat still hopes for youCeleste Koh #220425# Spring in Korea, 2018

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Schizophrenic Episode: Seeking Religious Help With Schizophrenia

April – May 2013 Since that day my family came frantically looking for me at Singapore Botanic Gardens to bring me homeI was taken to visit different religious placesAfter hearing my woes of hearing voicesFeelings of being possessedOr being chased by evil spirits My father said to meThere’s nothing to be afraid ofAs long as […]

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Schizophrenic Episode: Giving Tuition With A Schizophrenic Mind

Like many other university undergraduatesI took up tuition assignmentsEarning extra pocket money during my free time outside of schoolI think I was concurrently teaching about 2-3 kids at that timeStart of 2013I had an Indian girlAnother Indian boyAnother Chinese girl perhapsBut those days were so darkGloomy like the weatherFrequent rainThunderstormsTrips to my tutees’ house were […]

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[Poem] 守株待兔 (Guard The Tree And Wait For The Rabbit)

Tired of always reaching outTook a step backI decidedJust guard the tree and wait for the rabbitIt’s okay to let myself be reached out to Not saying I should just be passively waitingIt’s just thatI realisedCompared to actively trying to engage people who just don’t give a shitIt’s better to save my energy until someone […]

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[Quote / Poem Repost By Taeyeon] I Am Not Okay

“There is no one who can understand and say everything is okay.But,they just wait, consider and act as if everything is okay. I don’t want people to assume they are being okay to everything by looking at one’s consideration and understanding.” Reposted by Kim Taeyeon on 8 April 2022 (Jonghyun’s birthday)Original text by @ggeujuck_

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[Quote / Poem Repost By Taeyeon] Tree (나무)

Title: Tree “The wind will shake the tree anyway, so don’t expect for it not to shake. Regardless of how much you hope and pray for it to not shake, eventually it will be a tree that shakes. Don’t expect, and don’t get hurt. It is only you that need to be firm.” Reposted by […]

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Schizophrenic Episode: “Split”

#220410# January 2013 One night For what was to be a precursor to my worst nightmare for a long time I was watching a short program on a local TV channel That episode was featuring a type of mental illness What was it called…. Bipolar Disorder? I can’t remember exactly But they re-enacted what seemed […]

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Schizophrenic Episode: MV Filming at Singapore Botanic Gardens in 2013

#220406# That periodEach day I felt like I was caught in the middle of a battle between the good and evil forcesThat dayMy dad drove me in the carI listened to the subtle changes in his voiceAt one moment, his voice was youthful like that of a young ladAnother moment, his voice turned hoarser and […]

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All Alone

The first time I was alone
It was not by choice
I got dumped by friends who made empty promises
Who cancelled dates last minute
Who left me behind to join other more popular groups of friends….

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The Taeyeon Paradox

Paradoxes of Taeyeon that are confusing and self-contradictory enough to make me wanna pull my hair…

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Relationship Insurance

What is the best insurance against a high potential relationship risk? For an unconfirmed relationship of many years….

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