Category: My Schizophrenic Journey

Schizophrenia has an inseparable part to play in the course of our relationship. Whether it was just a play of tricks in the mind, there were undeniable truths that happened in reality which couldn’t be ignored. Simply put, it could be schizophrenia that brought me closer to Taeyeon. In my journey with schizophrenia, I asked questions, waited for answers and looked for evidence. It was an interplay between illusion and reality. Join me in this unpredictable roller coaster ride of finding the truth behind schizophrenia.

Trip To Sarawak 2018: Where Are You Now?

June 20, 2018.Reading time 17 minutes.

Last Monday, I flew to Kuching, the city of Sarawak with my family for a holiday to visit my mum’s family. For the first 2 and a half days of our trip, I felt really normal and comfortable. My body didn’t ache much. I also didn’t have any indigestion problems like I had experienced during […]

The Truth Behind Schizophrenia + Why I Still Continued Doing Mind Singing Again In 2014

September 26, 2017.Reading time 10 minutes.

Back in 2014, after I had recovered from schizophrenia and very much stopped hearing voices already, even though I had already given up on mind-singing, I was still trying to find a link between schizophrenia and mind-singing, and the truth behind this mystery. One night, when I was lying on the bed, I was looking […]

The Mystery Of Ants

June 30, 2017.Reading time 17 minutes.

This year, since 4-5 months ago, my family began to see black ants everywhere in the house, especially in the kitchen and living room. At first, I thought it was due to the unattended food which my mum always left lying around in the house. But there was one very strange thing about the behaviour […]

Love Diary: Was It Just A Dream?

June 12, 2017.Reading time 18 minutes.

12 June 2017 For about a month or two, I had been hearing voices mentioning about looking for a new house. But I wasn’t sure what exactly they were talking about. Was Taenggu going to buy a new house and live on her own? About 2 weeks ago, I also had a vision of “someone” […]

Trip To Sarawak: Conversations With Fifth Aunt And Son And The Mysterious Grandma Ring

June 6, 2017.Reading time 11 minutes.

In May 2017, I went for a short 4-day trip to Kuching, Sarawak with my mum for a holiday. Sarawak is my mum’s hometown. She grew up there but when she was about 20 years old, she moved to Singapore to work, where she eventually met my father and got married here. The main purpose […]

Who Is “She”?

May 25, 2017.Reading time 21 minutes.

My life suddenly began to feel magical right from the first day of the year 2013. It was also the day when Girls’ Generation / SNSD had their comeback with the song “I Got A Boy”. That was the period when I began to observe some extra-terrestrial / extra-ordinary / other-worldly phenomena in their performances […]

Lyrics: The Scientist

April 24, 2017.Reading time 6 minutes.

“The Scientist” by Coldplay Come up to meet you Tell you I’m sorry You don’t know how lovely you are I had to find you Tell you I need you Tell you I set you apart Tell me your secrets And ask me your questions Oh let’s go back to the start Running in circles; […]

Lyrics: Talking To The Moon

February 22, 2017.Reading time 9 minutes.

“Talking To The Moon” by Bruno Mars I know you’re somewhere out there Somewhere far away I want you back I want you back My neighbors think I’m crazy But they don’t understand You’re all I have You’re all I have At night when the stars Light up my room I sit by myself Talking […]