Schizophrenia has an inseparable part to play in the course of our relationship. Whether it was just a play of tricks in the mind, there were undeniable truths that happened in reality which couldn’t be ignored. Simply put, it could be schizophrenia that brought me closer to Taeyeon. In my journey with schizophrenia, I asked questions, waited for answers and looked for evidence. It was an interplay between illusion and reality. Join me in this unpredictable roller coaster ride of finding the truth behind schizophrenia.
My life back home after being discharged from IMH was not at all easy. In fact, it was more difficult as I had to cope with worsening side effects of my psychotic drugs… How did I manage to overcome all of these challenges dealing with a mental illness and with the help of art therapy just in time before I would set off on my holiday trip to Fukuoka?
After getting admitted to Sayang Wellness Centre at IMH on the night of 13th May 2013, I spent one week and two days there for observation and treatment. How was my first-time stay like at a mental hospital and what was my actual diagnosis??….
Barely 1-2 weeks after being discharged from IMH for treatment of schizophrenia, I went on a holiday trip to Fukuoka with a friend while still on the road to recovery. How did I manage to cope with mental illness while travelling and which BIGBANG member’s concert did we watch there that turned out to be my very first overseas concert experience??
After 3 years, I suddenly decided to engage the same theta healer for a second healing session with her. I thought I could get more answers to the various issues related to Taeyeon that were piling up inside of me. Did I finally get to hear the truths that I needed to hear…?
#130513# Three consecutive nights (and countless other nights) without a proper sleepEach morning I looked at myself in the mirrorI looked like a different person from who I was yesterdayMore haggardMore paleMore disorientedDarkening eye circlesWeakening limbsPerhaps my features started to look differentPerhaps an outline of a different spirit occupying my body?Sat down at the dining…
May 2013 Three nights in a rowI couldn’t really fall asleepKept awake by the monsters of the nightVoices of different entities whom I couldn’t seeCame and went at their willWhat were they discussing about?Dealer?What dealer?Drug dealer?What did they want to do to me?Imagination ran wildTake me, just take meDon’t harm TaeyeonTaeyeon is a celebrity but…
Some learning points that I have taken away with me after watching a local TV drama “Mind Jumper 触心罪探” last year. An intriguing crime story about a cult murder case and its leader who is revealed to be a schizophrenia patient…
April – May 2013 Since that day my family came frantically looking for me at Singapore Botanic Gardens to bring me homeI was taken to visit different religious placesAfter hearing my woes of hearing voicesFeelings of being possessedOr being chased by evil spirits My father said to meThere’s nothing to be afraid ofAs long as…
Like many other university undergraduatesI took up tuition assignmentsEarning extra pocket money during my free time outside of schoolI think I was concurrently teaching about 2-3 kids at that timeStart of 2013I had an Indian girlAnother Indian boyAnother Chinese girl perhapsBut those days were so darkGloomy like the weatherFrequent rainThunderstormsTrips to my tutees’ house were…
#220410# January 2013 One night For what was to be a precursor to my worst nightmare for a long time I was watching a short program on a local TV channel That episode was featuring a type of mental illness What was it called…. Bipolar Disorder? I can’t remember exactly But they re-enacted what seemed…
#220406# That periodEach day I felt like I was caught in the middle of a battle between the good and evil forcesThat dayMy dad drove me in the carI listened to the subtle changes in his voiceAt one moment, his voice was youthful like that of a young ladAnother moment, his voice turned hoarser and…
7-10 March 2020 I had been feeling really tired and torn apart lately. Despite trying to stay positive and keep myself busy by making artworks for Taenggu and writing actively, I couldn’t help feeling empty and depressed every now and then. One major reason for my feelings of depression is that I haven’t been earning…