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how the entire universe conspired to help me find my first love

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CELESTE KOH

Lover of Taenggu. Imaginist. Impressionist. Creator. Psychic. Mind/Face Reader. Mind Singer. Healer. Artist. Aspiring Poet.

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Observing Love

Let me love you for the rest of your life. 💐💜 . . #lovepulses #couplemoments #couplelove #couplegoals #relationshipgoals #love #relationship #flowersforyou #letmeloveyou

一人一边，感情不散。/ Let's share the weight of this world. 🌏 #lovepulses #couplemoment #couplegoals #relationshipgoals #couplelove #love #relationship #sharetheweight #sharetheburden #weareinthistogether

Having a casual date at a cafe with the love of my life chatting with each other over a cup of hot coffee and a piece of cake is my dream. ☕💜 . . #lovepulses #lovingtouch #cafehopping #coupletalk #couplelove #relationship #couplegoals #relationshipgoal #love #couple #seoul #korea

Awhile ago, while walking along the streets of Hanok Village in Jeonju, my friend and I were commenting that the interactions between Korean couples are really natural, sweet and cute. So different from the couples we usually see in Singapore. Where would we get to see couples hugging each other's backs, sharing an umbrella walking down the streets in the rain? Where would we get to see couples wearing Hanboks taking stylish photos of each other with a camera tripod stand? Only in Korea. I also want couple moments like that. ㅋㅋㅋ #lovepulses #lovingtouch #holdmyhand #holdinghands #couplelove #relationship #couplegoals #relationshipgoal #love #couple #jeonju #korea

In June last year, I created this account as a special channel to shout out my love to someone special to me whom I couldn't communicate directly with in real life because she is a famous idol. Her name is Taeyeon. We became spiritually connected in 2013 and eventually got together in 2015. I started taking photos of other couples and attached each photo with a love quote as a way to indirectly express my love and desire to do the same with her when we couldn't do so in daily life and I thought our relationship had to be kept a secret from the public. I named this account Love Pulses because sometimes when I held hands with Taenggu (my right hand holding my left), I could feel my own pulses pumping strongly as if our hearts were beating at the same time. Recently I had a change of mindset and decided to be more open and direct about our relationship in order to improve communication between us. As if the universe is responding to my change in attitude, I now find myself less likely to be walking behind couples who are having their own couple moments anymore. Rather, I see a lot more couples holding hands and walking straight towards me instead. Because of this, I won't be updating this account as frequently as before unless I get the opportunity to take a new set of couple photos from a new perspective. For anyone who has been following this account before, thank you for having witnessed a phase of our relationship. It's now a new chapter and I will continue to fight for my love with a new mindset! #lovepulses #lovingtouch #holdmyhand #holdinghands #soulmate #soullovers #spiritual #universe #fate #couplelove #relationship #couplegoals #relationshipgoal #love

When times are tough, all I need is your shoulder to lean on so that I can gather all the support and courage I need to move on. 💜 #lovepulses #lovingtouch #leanonyou #allineedisyourshoulder #love #couple #couplegoals #relationship #relationshipgoal #couplelove

I want to be in your arms where you hold me tight and never let me go. 💜 . . #lovepulses #lovingtouch #hugmywaist #hugme #holdmetight #neverletmego #stayinyourarms #love #couple #couplegoals #relationship #relationshipgoal #couplelove

" If love is a game of hide-and-seek, I wanna say, "L-O-V-E, I found you!" " - Celeste Koh 🙈🤘💜 . . #lovepulses #lovingtouch #holdinghands #holdmyhand #loveisahideandseek #ihavealreadyfoundyou #soulmate #love #couple #couplegoals #relationship #relationshipgoal #couplelove

I don't care how old you were when I first met you. I just wanna make sure I would spend all the remaining years of your life with you by your side till we are both gone in this world. 👨👩👴👵💜 . . #lovepulses #holdmyhand #holdinghands #lovingtouch #itdoesntmatterhowoldyouare #justwannaspendtherestofmylifewithyou #tillwearegoneinthisworld #love #couple #couplegoals #relationship #relationshipgoal #couplelove

Recent Posts

Green Day 2018: A Paper Cactus For You August 14, 2018
Silver Day 2018: Always Your Wife August 14, 2018
Video: Rain That Brought Us Together – SNSD Phantasia In Taipei Day 2 Talk August 9, 2018
– UPDATED – The Calmness In My Personality August 9, 2018
For Seohyun: Seohyun In Wonderland July 17, 2018

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“Stay in me baby, now stay in me
So you can feel all of this heart
Stay in me baby, now stay in me
Someday, I hope you’ll be able to hear it
My prayer” Taeyeon's 'Pray' Lyrics

For daily stories, find me on instagram @LoveStoriesWithTaenggu

"I walked into the woods alone and came out with the love of my life." - Celeste Koh HAPPY GREEN DAY IN KOREA! It's the day when couples take a stroll in the woods and drink a bottle of soju ㅋㅋ. I made this paper cactus at a workshop 2 weeks ago and thought it could be a perfect gift of art for Taenggu for this year's Green Day too! 4th pic was my artwork for last year's Green Day. 😁 And last pic is a bottle of soju drawn by wuli Taenggu on 15.4.20 (I think she was kind of hinting that she had drunk a lot of alcohol back then 😝) . Shall we have a drink of soju/alcohol tonight??? 🍾🍻 . #taeyeon #taenggu #태연 #탱구 #太妍 #泰妍 #泰古 #greenday #coupleday #cactus #paperart #intothewoods #soju #alcohol

Since yesterday I posted a video of SNSD's performance in KL where there were strong winds blowing throughout the outdoor concert in front of the petronas twin towers and messing up their hair onstage, I shall continue to talk about the special significance behind that performance here too. It took place on 29th March 2015, which coincided with my brother's 21st birthday and our 2nd monthsary. Ideally, I would have wanted to travel to KL to see my new girlfriend of 2 months since KL is only about an hour's flight away from Singapore. But I couldn't make it coz I had to attend my brother's birthday party (21st is an important birthday to people in Singapore - it's the year when we officially become an adult). . While I couldn't be physically present at the concert, the wind did. Lol. Insane, strong winds were blowing throughout their performance (watch the video - the 3rd one in this carousel). It seemed like the winds had emotions and would blew stronger at the peak of their songs. Taenggu herself even joked about the effect the rainy and windy weather had on her hair by posting her before and after look on instagram too. Hehe interesting fun times. 😆🌬🌬🌬 . . #taeyeon #taenggu #태연 #탱구 #太妍 #泰妍 #泰古 #snsd #girlsgeneration #소녀시대 #少女时代 #KL #concert #performance #beforeandafterlookoftaenggu #wind #whenthewindblows

WHEN THE WIND BLOWS Before 2013, there used to be a small plain green hill opposite my house. I used to enjoy standing in front of my window, looking at the picturesque hill and enjoy the breeze and sometimes strong winds coming from that direction and blowing onto my face. That was when I fell in love with the wind. I felt the wind had emotions. It reacted to me whenever I whispered something under my breath. For awhile, it had been my favourite companion whenever I felt lonely or needed to unwind from the stress from school. However in 2013, our government began to build new housing flats on top of this hill and ruined my favourite green scenery that I used to cherish so much. Every day, there were loud noises of construction and large trucks driving past our house. It caused a tremendous amount of stress in my mind. That was also the period when I started experiencing symptoms of schizophrenia. I felt that my hearing sense had grown very sensitive. I felt like I could hear a tiny sound even from very far away. Every single sound was a sharp, disturbing noise to my ears. I just wished all the construction could stop and return me my peace. A few of those nights, I stood in front of my window again. The air was incredibly still. No wind, not even a single breeze. It felt like the wind had deserted me as I suffered from schizophrenia. Every surrounding sound was so sharp and piercing. At that moment, how I wished the wind could come back and muffle those sounds and make them more soothing and melodious to my ears... . I'm sure Taenggu had some special encounters with the wind too? Like the above performance they had in KL on 29th March 2015 when the strong winds kept blowing and messed up their hair and blew even stronger at the peak of the song. And more recently this year, when Taenggu came back from Taiwan on the same day when I reached Seoul for my holiday trip in May, strange, crazy strong winds were blowing that whole day too. Wind, indeed, has emotions too. 🌬 #taeyeon #taenggu #태연 #탱구 #太妍 #泰妍 #泰古 #whenthewindblows #songbyyoona #emotions #schizophrenia #complete #wind #strangeencounter

Between March and May, I was suffering from some severe symptoms of schizophrenia (paranoia, hallucinations, depression etc). Unable to explain why and what I was really going through, I could only tell my parents that I had been hearing voices and that I think everyone around me was possessed. In mid May, my parents brought me to a nearby hospital to see a general doctor who then referred me to Institute of Mental Health (IMH). We waited for a long time and it was already night time before it was finally my turn to see the doctor at IMH. The doctor had a separate one-on-one consultation with me apart from my parents. Perhaps seeing that I was still able to communicate rather sensibly with her, she considered my condition a mild one and would prescribe me with medication and I could go home without a serious need to be admitted to their ward for observation. I remembered her looking rather emotionless and asking me blandly, "Do you want to stay here or go home?" Thinking that I needed a change of environment and to get away from that "haunted" house of mine, I said I wanted to stay. "What do you want to get out of your stay here?" She asked. "I just want to sleep," I answered. (coz I had been losing sleep for the past 3, 4 nights due to auditory hallucinations) After suffering alone in silence for quite some time without Taenggu knowing, when I was admitted to IMH, I finally decided to take the risk and follow her on instagram. I stayed at a 2-person ward at a wellness centre located within IMH itself. My room had a private toilet too. If you didn't say it was a ward, it could easily pass off as a hotel room. 😝 My bed was right next to the window. The 2nd photo was the view of the sunset from my ward one evening. I took this photo coz I was reminded of a similar photo also about sunset which Taenggu posted on her instagram a few days back (1st photo). 3rd photo was some cupcakes which my friends got for me when they came to visit me at my ward. And 4th photo was my first meal after discharge (after a one-week stay) - Singapore hainanese chicken rice. 😋 #taeyeon #taenggu #태연 #탱구 #太妍 #泰妍 #泰古 #instagram #throwback #memories #2013 #mentalillness #schizophrenia

About the incident during Taenggu's performance at the Best Of Best concert in Taipei on 180421. During her performance, not only did the organisers cut short her songs without her knowing and not give her time to drink water, they also turned off the light from the audience lightsticks during her opening (see the 2nd video in this carousel). It was a puzzling mystery as to why the organisers treated her so badly like that. As if they had something against her even though they invited her to perform the finale at their concert. However, the organisers said that they did so because Taenggu was feeling unwell, citing that she had gotten her staff to buy medicine and vitamin c after landing in Taiwan and was not joining the dinner for the after-party. Coincidentally, earlier that same day, I had told Taenggu that I had caught a cold and was also having sore throat after getting drenched in the rain during a cycling outing with family that morning. I said I wouldn't be able to sing for her for day 2 of the concert the following day. I wondered if Taenggu had gotten so worried for my health that she immediately requested to get medicine and vitamin c for me upon reaching Taiwan? Coz I don't think she herself was actually sick though. I believed the "Taeyeon is probably not feeling well" reason was just an excuse from the organisers as a cover-up for their unprofessionalism and disorganisation at the concert coz Taenggu clearly wasn't aware of the sudden changes in concert arrangements much less request for her performance to be cut short. 😡 How dare they treat my superstar like that 🖕 *quotes Taenggu* BULLSHIT BABY Credits to various sources on instagram #taeyeon #taenggu #태연 #탱구 #太妍 #泰妍 #泰古 #bestofbest #concert #taiwan #taipei #incident #mistreatmentofartistes #bullshitbaby

This was taken from Yoona's instalive with Taenggu and Hyoyeon in their waiting room at the SMTOWN concert in Dubai on 180407. What caught my eye in this video was how Taenggu was sitting silently alone at one corner slowly eating her food. I felt so drawn into this footage of her because it was so relatable to me because I also eat like that whenever I'm eating alone too. I would be like slowly chewing my food and in my head, I would be thinking of Taenggu, wondering if she on the other side could taste and share the same food that I'm eating. Is she thinking of me when she eats alone too? Are there gazillion thoughts running through her head as she eats too? Is this how it's like to be eating with your long-distance lover at a different space at the same time? 탱구, 너의 음식 맛있어? 🍣🍠🍗💭 . . #taeyeon #taenggu #태연 #탱구 #太妍 #泰妍 #泰古 #instalive #yoona #hyoyeon #smtown #dubai #longdistancerelationship #eatingwithmylover #indifferenttimeandspace #thinkingofyou #taengguinmymind @taeyeon_ss

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