[Poem] Love Scam

First you said you love me foreverThen you said let’s go on together for a long, long timeBut when it was time to meet each otherYou never did turn upDue to reasons I don’t even knowAnd then you said you will continue to work hardTo be a singer for a long, long timeTo repay the […]

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[Poem] Rekindle + Candle Making Workshop

Light up a candleReignite the flame I once had for youHow to keep the fire burningBefore it is blown out againBy the chilling winds of a cold, cold worldCeleste Koh 23 April 2022 – Candle making workshop with a friend

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Schizophrenic Episode: Monsters of the Night

May 2013 Three nights in a rowI couldn’t really fall asleepKept awake by the monsters of the nightVoices of different entities whom I couldn’t seeCame and went at their willWhat were they discussing about?Dealer?What dealer?Drug dealer?What did they want to do to me?Imagination ran wildTake me, just take meDon’t harm TaeyeonTaeyeon is a celebrity but […]

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[Poem] Cold Chills

Cold chills It’s never meant to be that cold How many layers you put on Still not enough to keep you warm Was it the air-con Or was it the chills you get when you were misunderstood or maligned? Or was it the memories of a cold harsh reality when you were left abandoned alone […]

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[Poem] See No Evil

I believe in what I see Unless I have been personally told the truth otherwise But they say, “Open your eyes and seek the truth” At what cost should I take to seek the truth? If in the process of seeking the truth, it costs me more pain than what’s worth, Then it’s better to […]

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[Poem] Sakura

Sakura bloomsAt the peak of SpringSo does my little heartThat still hopes for youCeleste Koh #220425# Spring in Korea, 2018

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Schizophrenic Episode: Seeking Religious Help With Schizophrenia

April – May 2013 Since that day my family came frantically looking for me at Singapore Botanic Gardens to bring me homeI was taken to visit different religious placesAfter hearing my woes of hearing voicesFeelings of being possessedOr being chased by evil spirits My father said to meThere’s nothing to be afraid ofAs long as […]

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Schizophrenic Episode: Giving Tuition With A Schizophrenic Mind

Like many other university undergraduatesI took up tuition assignmentsEarning extra pocket money during my free time outside of schoolI think I was concurrently teaching about 2-3 kids at that timeStart of 2013I had an Indian girlAnother Indian boyAnother Chinese girl perhapsBut those days were so darkGloomy like the weatherFrequent rainThunderstormsTrips to my tutees’ house were […]

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[Poem] 守株待兔 (Guard The Tree And Wait For The Rabbit)

Tired of always reaching outTook a step backI decidedJust guard the tree and wait for the rabbitIt’s okay to let myself be reached out to Not saying I should just be passively waitingIt’s just thatI realisedCompared to actively trying to engage people who just don’t give a shitIt’s better to save my energy until someone […]

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[Quote / Poem Repost By Taeyeon] I Am Not Okay

“There is no one who can understand and say everything is okay.But,they just wait, consider and act as if everything is okay. I don’t want people to assume they are being okay to everything by looking at one’s consideration and understanding.” Reposted by Kim Taeyeon on 8 April 2022 (Jonghyun’s birthday)Original text by @ggeujuck_

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