“What greater gift can I get than the love of my cat?”
I decided to do this rainbow mosaic kitty Taeng drawing for our 34th monthsary simply because it was my favourite look of Taenggu of the month. It was inspired by the following video of her with a rainbow cat filter on instagram.
I thought it was so cute so I drew this look of her onto paper. The following picture was the exact screenshot I had used as a reference for her face. I chose to capture this moment in the video because I loved her frowning expression here which looked kinda comical. 😆
After drawing her face, I then completed the rest of the drawing with my own idea of how her cat body would look like. The body had to match the mosaic patterns on her ears.
Then, I went on to colour each mosaic shape with different rainbow colours using my colour markers. In the middle of the process, I didn’t realise one of my markers, a dark pink one, was leaking. I accidentally dripped excess ink on the lower side of her right ear and also dirtied small parts of her face. From what was supposed to be a perfect drawing, it was almost ruined just like that. 😫
But instead of panicking like it was the end of the world, I stayed calm. I had already come this far into producing this drawing in its last final stage. I was not going to let my efforts go into waste and start a new drawing all over again. Assuringly, I told Taenggu that I would find a solution to cover up this mistake to save this artwork.
I took a careful look at this almost-ruined piece of artwork again. I thought the dark pink, almost red ink drip looked like blood. It looked as if this rainbow mosaic kitty Taeng had an accidental cut on her ear, causing it to bleed and have some blood splashed onto her face as well.
I was immediately reminded of Taenggu’s instagram post on her Zero’s account not long ago. She said Zero was having ear treatment those days so she wouldn’t be able to do an instalive with Zero for awhile.
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I don’t think I’ll be able to do Zero Live for a while… My look is unsightly these days due to ear treatment 😞 I have to take care of my image so I will start Live when I bathe prettily! #Zero
What a coincidence! Then an idea sparked in me. I could pretend I was a nurse treating and cleaning the “wounds” on my rainbow mosaic kitty Taeng’s ear as if I was doing an ear treatment for Zero too!
So I did the following to demonstrate how I cleaned and treated the “injured” ear of my rainbow mosaic kitty Taeng.
I was so glad to be able to turn my once-ruined drawing around into something even more meaningful that could serve a spiritual purpose to help Zero’s ear to cure faster! I guess this could also be considered a form of spiritual healing for Zero through art too.
I think Taenggu already knew I have a penchant for cats since long time ago. A few years ago, especially when I felt lonely, I used to enjoy playing and spending time with the stray cats near my house. In return, I could feel that they actually enjoyed my company and me stroking their furs too.
I guess my instagram posts on my personal account say a lot about how much I love cats. 😻
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The stray cat who climbed 7 storeys of stairs and walked straight into our house when I happened to open the door, preparing to go out yesterday. Managed to get it out of our house but it still lay stuck at our doorstep, refusing to leave. 😂 I think it was looking for an owner.. how I wished I could adopt you too! 😔🙀 #straycat #kitty #unexpectedguest
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My kitty bestie. 😻 Some nights ago. I always have a can of cat food in my bag just in case I would pass by and meet her again at the same place. But I realised that she doesn't look for me for food (since she's so lovable, someone else would already have given her food before I do). She's actually already happy enough if I just sit down and stroke her body. She likes it and she loves me. She would walk around and brush her head and body against mine in return. You give her some love and she gives you back the same amount of love. She's quiet like me, she doesn't demand for love or anything but silently requests through her actions and waits. I see a little bit of myself and a little bit of someone in her. ❤ #wedonthavetospeaktocommunicate #mybestfriend
P.S. That someone whom I was referring to in my above post is actually Taenggu 💜
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I received lots of love from this cat today! It came walking towards me from faraway, stopped near me and then started stroking its body against my legs. And then it lay down beside me as I took pictures of it. Everything felt so lovely until it stood up again and bit my ankle. I moved my leg back a little due to natural reflex and it probably thought I was going to beat it up or sth so it wanted to run away. When it saw that I didn't do anything, it came to bite me again. HARRR naughty cat!! 😼 You were lucky I was kind enough not to bite you back! 😂
In our day-to-day life, I know Taenggu recognises that I do have emotional needs for love and affection in times of loneliness. She encourages me to get a pet for companionship, just like how she did the same when she adopted Ginger, and more recently, Zero. Pets not only are good companions, they are a good source of healing too. Their presence could heal and help make the pain of separation between me and Taenggu more bearable. While she likes dogs, she knows I like cats. So occasionally, but at most appropriate times of need, she would transform herself into an adorable cat for me through these photos and videos.
But I had never owned any pets before since young, except for the 4 terrapins at home which do not require constant attention or high level of care and monitoring. My main obstacle was my parents, especially my father, who were pretty against having furry animals running about in the house. My mum who has a sensitive nose was afraid she would be allergic to furs and thought it would be a hassle to clean the house if we were to get a dog or a cat. My father doesn’t like animals at all and think they are dirty and full of germs. So whenever we visit our relatives’ house, we are not even allowed to stroke the furs of their dogs whenever he is around.
Things almost took a positive turn for me in 2013 when I was stricken with worst episodes of schizophrenia and was warded in Sayang Wellness Centre at the Institute of Mental Health. I came across someone who was asking around on Facebook for people to adopt a small abandoned black kitten. It was a really cute kitten. Mummy, who probably knew having a pet would help me with my mental illness, relented and promised that she would let me adopt this kitten. However, as I began to make rather swift and positive recovery, the plan of getting the kitten fizzled out.
Over these few years, it seems like a miracle that due to the influence of social media these days, my mum’s attitude has changed. After watching several videos of cute kittens on Facebook, she has now developed a soft spot for cats too. Rather than me asking her for permissions to get a kitten, she is the one who suggests to me first about getting one now. 😂 The only hindrance left now is my father and also my own personal concerns over whether I will be able to commit myself to taking care of a pet.
Recently, more specifically last month (I’m writing this now in April 2018), I started seeing visions of Taenggu acting like a kitty. My own interpretation is this: it was like her trying to tell me that “Hey, I know times in the coming months may be harder for you to get by when you are alone. Please get yourself a cat that you love to keep you company and I will be your cat for you.”
Thanks Taenggu, regardless of whether my inner wish of having a cat will come into fruition or not, you will always be my one and only favourite kitty. 😻😽💜
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